400 Lux

I feel like wanting to write but I don't even know how to start. Ugh. Ano is going to be published: my little and fragile world is going to be exposed. I'm not sure if I'm ready for this, really, I'm 18years old (and I was 17 four months ago), I don't even know. And the scariest part it: am I going to be able to sell 500books? And what am I supposed to do now? I've already started another book but it's a different type of writing, less feel-ish and more story-ish. What if I suck at writing like that? *fucking nervous*
And I'm even more nervous about my body - had a problem and, even though Luís tried to fix it, I'm still scared. I just want my menstruation back. Seriously. Nevertheless, this situation just pulled us together even more. Everyday I fall in love with him.
And while I'm writing this, I'm taking care of my bedroom - cleaning and organizing, needed a new shelf for books (all thanks to my first time in a Fleamarket, I bought too many books omg). Life is hard but sweet.

Craving:
*Shoes omg
*The complete colletion of Virginia Wolf by Wordsworth Library Collection
*Display-things (can't name it) to organize my bracelets and nail polishes
*A 10 in Deutsch exam